| I am finding ways to feed the emptyness other than with food  )) love you all sweeties |
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| I am so fucking fed up who does he think I am ????!!!!!!!!!!!!!! why is he not asking me to meet it has been like for one billion years he told me we would meet does he want me to beg or what ?? fuck him he does not know what he is missing i HAVE HAD ENOUGH OF BEING TREATED LIKE THIS AND AM SURELY NOT GONNA BINGE THIS TIME? HE IS NOT WORTH IT !!!!! ana please help lme |
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| will this pain ever go away ??? will I keep on destructing and degrading myself over and over ???? will I ever be truly loved, cared for and respected ??? will I ever stop destructing the ones who love me ????? Will I ever fulfill my dreams ?? will I ever have te courage to express myself constructively?? will I ever be proud of who I am ??? will I ever stop feeling guilty ????? THE ANSWER IS YES |
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| yesterday intake 1100 so quiet good i did not binge I am sooooo crazy about my boss well my ex boss he is now director of marketing I want to be slim and georgeous for him ))) 
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|  after 4 hours exercising had a masiv binge yesterday
right i have a really weird diet plan but i know it is going to work because i like it , they make pita in the snack nexdoor wich are delicious and only cost 3.50 euros i have decided to have one each day when i come back from work for the next two weeks, it isgoing to be easy staying all day without eating because am at work and i hate eating in front of people i know it is weird but i get soo offended when people say enjoy your meal it makes me feel like such a fat cow !!!! ((((( I have calculated that a pita with loots of salad i love salad depending on what you put in it is between 500 and 700 calories, adding to this the occasionnal drink ,but lots of exercise ( i burn 400 calories an hours on my stepper and i can go on for hours) I will lose a lot in two weeks so am getting started tomorrow today am on atkins and am planning doing at least one hour of exercise i add some vitamins pills of course obviously if i have dinner out one evening i will eat the equivalent in calories Show your body who is the boss ))) |
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